I was supposed to start this post off with something clever about resurrecting my old blog. However, I couldn’t even log into my old blog so I guess this is my new blog.
The subject, however, is the same with a few important twists.
To summarize, I felt God call me to Honduras about ten years ago. I ended up teaching at a school called Eagles Christian Academy. I was there for a total of about four years and then worked with another ministry.
Now I’m realizing it’s probably a good thing my old blog was misplaced. This way, I don’t have to have a reminder of how things ended with the ministry.
After much wandering, a marriage, an international move, two children, and a surprising number of animals later, I feel like I’m right back where I started: teaching Kindergarten at Eagles Christian Academy.
This brings up so many feels that it’s hard to know where to start.
I’m excited.
I can’t wait to get back to teaching. It was something that I was passionate about and was great at. Although I felt God led me away from it when I left, I missed it and can’t believe I really get to teach again.
It’s crazy to me how it happened. As part of my healing journey, I was making a list of the people that have hurt me in the past but also the people that have left a positive impact on me.
The couple that run the school were near the top of the list of people that have influenced me in a good way. So, when one of them messaged me and wanted to hop on a call, they were already at the front of my mind.
When they found out they’d be opening their school online because Honduras is still on lockdown, they immediately thought of me and knew they had to try to get me to teach for them again.
Just being thought of was incredibly touching and I wanted to jump in, but knew it wasn’t just me I had to think about anymore. There are so many more aspects to my life to consider now compared to when I was single and had the ability to move to another country at a moment’s notice.
I’m nervous.
There are so many uncertainties right now that my struggle with anxiety is very real. I don’t know how I’m going to manage to teach kids online. What will that look like? Can I be as successful online as I was in the classroom?
That remains to be seen.
I’m also worried about what this means financially for my family. As a result of my struggles with both anxiety and depression, I quit my online job a couple of months ago.
Switching to primarily being a stay-at-home mom has been good for my mental health but it has not been good for our finances. My husband was able to find a job quickly, but since it’s a local position, he makes local wages.
It’s not enough to cover our bills and still have enough to pursue our passions and build up a good future for our daughters.
I’ll also be making local wages but with far more expenses than before. Now, I need childcare and have to pay for my own housing and transportation since it’s no longer included in my salary.
I’m hopeful.
Despite all the fears and uncertainties, I’m hopeful that God will provide for our needs. Ideally, that would happen in the form of monthly supporters.
That would allow me to continue to spend as much time as possible with my daughters. If I did have to work another online job to support us, I don’t know how long it would be before I fell back into depression.
I also am hoping my shirt and mug designs take off and become passive income, but just saw a post from someone who was excited to have gotten one sale after a year of work and literally hundreds of designs… So that’s probably not going to be enough.
But I know that no matter what happens, God will continue to provide for our needs and give us what we need to follow His will for our lives.
Prayer Requests
Please be praying for the following:
- That I would continue to submit myself to the Lord and the healing journey that I’m on.
- That God would provide monthly donors to support our family.
- That we would continue to grow strong as a family and seek God’s will for our lives every step of the way.
If you feel led to give a one-time gift or a recurring monthly gift, please do so through this PayPal link. Unfortunately, these gifts are not tax-deductible but they are SO appreciated.
If you want to give through another means, please contact me directly and I will be more than happy to figure that out for you. Feel free to message me on Facebook, too, if we’re friends there.
Until next time, God bless you!